A long tale of love

The day I wrote last and until now, I have gone through a lot many emotions. The thrill, the joy and the subsequent dejection and longing. The next three poems are connected, showing the three stages of love.
I have posted them in the order I wrote.
Over to you bard!

** The proposal **

I started off to make a friend of you
and I very miserably failed
For however hard I tried to confine my feelings
and yet I couldn't help thinking of more.


The charm that has may enchanted
has also a spell on this mortal soul,
And whatever means I tried to get rid of it
and yet I couldn't come out of it whole.


I don't know if you have noticed,
but none have missed
the sparkle in my eyes
when you are around;
And it is certainly strange
that I have told my feelings to all
but the one to whom this heart is bound.


It also is strange
that I still miss you most
though the ship of time has long left your shore,
And I want to tell you today
than anything else in this world
I love you more


********** Dejected, but not discouraged ***********

Can I propose to you, just once more.

I know you have turned me down twice
I know i am full of vice;
But I dont want to abandon
the hope of a glorious world.
Hey! Can I propose to you, just once more.

It is tough to hear the no
I know your heart feels so,
But ask yourself just this one time,
Cant I, even for a day, come into your life.
Hey! cant you make me your.
Can I propse to you, just once more.

The past has been past, and it was bad.
And I still look to it, when I am sad.
But the future is now.
Showing its glorious head out of the clouds.
Just look at me once again
I will look to you, sane and pure.
Hey! Can I propose to you, just once more.


********** A lost hope and the world after **********

Afterburns

I never thought
you could mean
so much to me.
It was in fun
that loved you first,
and I never took myself
too seriously;
I kept loving you
and I thought,
its just because
I have no other girl
to go to.
A long while later
I proposed to you
and I never thought you would say anything but no.
I was ready for rejection
I was brave enough to face,
But when it came
and when you said
you value me so much more as friend
but still declined to go all the way,
and I thought initially,
'Ok! this is what I knew
will happen to me,'
and I still thought
I was strong
enough to handle it
and more over I was
never too serious about you.
But in an hour itself
I felt the folly of my thoughts.
You mean so much more to me
I didn't know it, until then.
'you are my friend,' and you said,
'you will always be'
And I am crying in my heart
why is it this way.
you could have said to me, "No,
Get off you bugger
Get lost from my life."
and it would have been easier
to shut you out;
But the way you said
made me fall in love with you more
And it is so hard on my heart
to face the rock of my feelings
crush me under its weight,
and now I have taken myself seriously
Yes, I love you more than I ever thought.